Maybe you are right. Maybe I just should not say anything at all. I always end up being scolded by you. Maybe I should just keep quiet and stop complaining.I thought I could tell you my unhappiness and you would understand. I would choose to complain to you cause you are the one that is closest to me . Now I guess I'm wrong ... I have no one to talk to... From now on , I will just keep quiet ... No matter what problems I met with or what unhappiness I had , I would just keep it to myself ... At least , you won't scold me....

Awesome . No words to describe how I feel now . So what if I'm jealous ... It wouldn't change the fact that you would always be a best friend with her huh ? Who would enjoy seeing their bf/gf meeting their ex huh ? I'm sorry but I'm just not so generous enough ! I don't care if both of you are just friends or nothing ... But i just don't like it ? How many times should I say ? Just two of u only ? Forget it ...

I'm not the perfect one .

To you , everything was a joke . But to me , it hurts. Why didn't you think through before you say anything ? This is not the first time ... How many more times do you want to hurt me ? Is saying those hurtful words , or scolding me , makes it like a joke to you ? I've had enough ... And numbed ... I don't even know how much do I stand in your heart... I didn't know that I was wasting your time all along ... is meeting up your girlfriend when you book out but she have to study due to exam wasting your time ? Ever spare a thought for me ? Why should I try to plan my time for you anymore when you don't even appreciate ? You don't even know that I always try my best to get off day on weekend and ended up I was being bad mouth by other manager ? Since I am wasting so much of your time than I might as well just work on weekend ...


Numbed .

The battle between heart and mind . I hate to feel the sense of insecurity ... I want to be loved and pampered ... I wished you could be more romantic ... I wished you could be more sensitive on how I feel ... Perhaps , I'm asking for too much ...

I can't help but always compare our relationship to your past relationship ... Why do I see the sweetness you had with her and you could do anything for her ? Am I not worth you to do so ? Because you pampered them too much in the past and now you feel that I should not be pampered? Is it fair to me ?

I seriously envy those sweet couples having sweet memories ...

Up till this day, I still ask myself , how much do you love me ? Why am I still asking this question again? When can I ever stop to feel the sense of insecurity ? Sometime I hope that you could be more romantic ... Sometime I hope that you can just stop scolding me ... I loved to be pampered but not to be scolded ... Sometime just some sweet SMS from you will brightened up my days ... Do you understand ? Feeling empty recently ... It's really different from the times before we got together and after we are together ... Sometime I really hope we can do some sweet things together ... Sometime when I see other guys being sweet to gf or to the girls they like , I seriously feel envy ......

Do u ever Know I spit out blood ? Do u know I met with problem with work ? Do u know that I need to study for my upcoming exam ? Do u know that I m trying my very best to be a good girlfriend ? How much have I sacrificed for u ? Sigh . Why are you good to me in the past but not now ? Why you want me to say please so much ? Before we get Tgt , u always SMS me ... So if we are Tgt already I need to take the initiative to SMS u ? Every changes ? I'm really tired . I'm really tired of all these .

How I wished I can be as successful I am in the past. Why do I always throw my temper whenever I'm tired ? I just need rest yesterday , don't you understand ? Do you understand the tiredness of me going through ? Having fever but still going to work ?