你， 害怕死亡吗？


最近，对死亡的感触很深。偶尔会担心自己会不会就不明不白地离开这个世界。死亡，不分年龄，也不会有任何警告。来就来，去就去。最可怕的是，若你离开，也不知道。人，只活一次。并没有什么九条命。所以，我的人生，就是要做我爱做的事。什么不愉快的事，我只允许自己不开心一天，然后，人生就因该精精彩彩地过， 这，才是我美丽的人生。

已经二十二岁了，可是我还有很多事还没做，很多梦想还没实现。 加油吧！我可以的！

Lying on my bed, having a very bad tummy pain. The bad pain that I had two years ago, totally freak me off.. How I wished you are by my side right now... Oh well... o.O ... 

Sometimes, life's amazing. I have realized that whatever that had happened in the past, ultimately, they are nothing, but the past, but the memories. So all the more in life, we should learn how to cherish what we had now.

I have been thinking a lot about my future. Whether can I open my own cafe... whether I will have my own house, own family, and of cause , marry to the guy I love... 

How to be successful in life? It is to forgive and forget the past. (: Girls always forgive, but never forget. I wished to do both of them. Can I? 

Unknowingly, we have been together for 22 months, and 3 days.. and Im still counting.. and I hope the number is infinite. (:

爱，真的很奇妙，不是吗？

什么是爱情？

爱，就是两个人幼稚地为很多小小的事情吵架。
爱，就是一张开眼就想看到对方。
爱，就是呼吸着有彼此的空气`。
爱，就是想握着彼此的手不放。
爱，就是一起数星星。
爱，就是把对方给喂肥，然后笑对方肥。
爱。。。。 没什么叫真爱，或永远的爱，或永远的甜美。
爱，最终会剩下的只有。。。信任，包容，体谅。
那，就是爱。

我们的爱。

This kind of life, how long will it last?

My life in the future, how would it be like? And to my future.... I'm really looking forward to it. Be it are you the guy of my life, or not, I have plan my life ahead.... If we are really fated, we will walk through this path together...



Come on Sandy, you will be successful one day and fulfil all your dreams!

I'm sorry. I'm nothing, but just a burden.

Dear blog,

Monday and Tuesday were my off day. Things get pretty well. I studied, I go to school, I do my workshop activity, I did my project, and motivated to do my project and had even came up with a draft for my upcoming IM project. MRA is on the track with 35 pages worth of report. 

But things went down today. Ever since I go back to work. Im not ranting about my work, or maybe Im just not whom I used to be. Everyone , anyone can just be so disappointed with me just because I feel like giving up now. But than again, how long have I been this strong and now I really just need a rest.  I do not need anyone to be disappointed with me just because I feel like giving up. I dont owe anyone a life. 

I have tried my best today during the unannoucned travel .Yes, Im very affected that I cant do a good job whenever there is a travel. This greatly affects my mood. Sales and GC were up, I did extend crew, I did call in crew to punch in early. But, still, the shift........ Im just not that perfect manager anymore. And for a moment, I stayed inside the chiller sobbing away. 

This work, had made me skipped school many times. I had skipped for a total of three times since the start of school . No matter how tired I am, I would drag myself to school in the past. But now, as long as some unhappy thing happen at work, I chose to skip school. 

I hate this feeling. I hate this unknowingly crying. Whatever over is over, but why am I pondering over my failures? These 16 days, I do not know how to pull through. 

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ANYWAY. 

No one understands. Mon sch after overnight shift. Tues go school project. Wed work plus sch. Thur work plus sch plus PRE SOR. Fri work plus project at school. Sometimes I thought that there are some people would have understand me but I was wrong. I just want to get out of this kind of life, but none of you understand. I dont need all of you to remind me that I can the work timing I wanna and I brought all these upon myself! If none of you understand me, just keep quiet. I see no point talking to anyone about this anymore since everything is my fault.