Sometimes, no one understands. If this continue, I will go crazy

Sometimes, I'm disappointed , I'm upset. But I do not wish you to be sandwiched in the middle. So I always act to be okay but I'm not. Just because I act to be strong, it doesn't mean that I do not need to be cared for. Maybe, maybe other girls are upset, they showed that they are upset , and you may show your concern. Or maybe, I'm just plain jealous, that's it. Whatever it is , one sentence .. Act blur live longer ...

有时想，朋友会比情人好吗？ 朋友就能一辈子地对彼此好，从不埋怨。以前都会被你疼爱，现在原来成为了你的负担。出去不像以前一样的甜蜜。就不喜欢你对我凶。如果你能对朋友好过情人，我有时候真的很希望继续做你的朋友。。。

Still feeling uncomfortable the fact that you went mj with them , or rather , with her . I know it's nothing wrong , she's your friend , and you guys are in a group but I just can't help it but to feel uncomfortable. I always leave it to you if you wanna go out with them . I don't wish to be unreasonable either . When can I be more " 大方" enough and not to feel uncomfortable when she is there ? I'm not a fool , not a fool enough to act as if nothin happen even if all those that she scolded me on were the past. Not a fool enough to believe that she was not scolding me

Awesome! Term break! To be exact, it only last for a month, but who cares?! But at least I'm free from studying for a moment! (:

Time for me to get back to work to earn some allowance for myself again. Not used to this kind of life, still prefer the independent side of mine. (;


CHIONG SANDY CHIONG

你， 害怕死亡吗？


最近，对死亡的感触很深。偶尔会担心自己会不会就不明不白地离开这个世界。死亡，不分年龄，也不会有任何警告。来就来，去就去。最可怕的是，若你离开，也不知道。人，只活一次。并没有什么九条命。所以，我的人生，就是要做我爱做的事。什么不愉快的事，我只允许自己不开心一天，然后，人生就因该精精彩彩地过， 这，才是我美丽的人生。

已经二十二岁了，可是我还有很多事还没做，很多梦想还没实现。 加油吧！我可以的！

Lying on my bed, having a very bad tummy pain. The bad pain that I had two years ago, totally freak me off.. How I wished you are by my side right now... Oh well... o.O ... 

Sometimes, life's amazing. I have realized that whatever that had happened in the past, ultimately, they are nothing, but the past, but the memories. So all the more in life, we should learn how to cherish what we had now.

I have been thinking a lot about my future. Whether can I open my own cafe... whether I will have my own house, own family, and of cause , marry to the guy I love... 

How to be successful in life? It is to forgive and forget the past. (: Girls always forgive, but never forget. I wished to do both of them. Can I? 

Unknowingly, we have been together for 22 months, and 3 days.. and Im still counting.. and I hope the number is infinite. (:

爱，真的很奇妙，不是吗？