What's the point of saying I love u only when u hurt me ?

This is human I guess . There are times when we say hurtful words but we don't realise . Sometimes we care too much and we say such hurtful words. Ya, maybe asking a bf just to give me a big hug and telling me everything is okay , implies that I can don't regard you as bf at all. It's ok , my bad . I just need moral support , don't you understand ?

Stubbornness kills me at times . But I just can't change this habit . I do not like to recieve help from anyone ,not even a single soul. It's not that I'm rejecting the help , but I wished to be independent . I need moral support, care and love more than financial support. This is me.

Usual routine of you playIng with your fish and me sitting at one corner doing nothing . Bored to the max . Why is everytime our dating in this way ? Hais . I want go fly kite . Aiya , no point comparing myself with her . For her , you can do anything , but for me ? Who knows ?

Happy 9 months anniversary ! Are you missing me like how I missed you now ? (: you are special in my life , never felt this way before. 9 months ago , we decided to be together , and now , I'm loving you even more . Pardon me for my attitude , stubbornness ... We learn to compromise . Glad to have you by my side baby ....

Now , I find it hard to talk to you .

I just feel so depressed . How can I stop this feeling ? Why will I tear unknowingly ? Why do I get panic so easily ? Why are there so many thoughts running through my mind ? Why is it that whenever I'm left alone , I start to cry ? I can't control . Seriously . Why ?