Soft spoken, understanding you.
But who to understand me?

And I cry myself to sleep every night.

You just don't understand me.

Why didnt the lorry just knocked me down?

I cant meet the expectation of others. Yes, so what if im just a part timer. other feels that i should know EVERY single thing. is shift messy my fault? am i even a junior captain or a manager who is running the shift? im just a part timer to be there to work to earn money! is the whole shift messy my fault? didnt i do my job? why am i always the one to be scolded. just bcos whenever ppl scold mi, i didnt talk back, and tats it? ppl take mi fr granted and scold me whenever they like.... scold me, stare at me, throw temper at me, just cos i didnt say anithing back? is tis fair to me? why am i the onli girl to be scolded huh? other girls looks weak, looks cute, small size, looks innocent, den jiu wont be scolded lar? why am i the one? pls, for goodness sake, im not that strong. is crying my fault as well? yes , i admit i cried easily but it could nt be controlled.

...hais..we have been quarreling recently...you and your assumption...whatever i do seems so wrong? maybe i should nt even talk to any guys at all...maybe.. i should not say anithing at all either... saying "huh" would be scolded from u as well... wat i wan? den wat do u want? wat do we want? wat happen?

i have always envy other people for the life they ever have and compare with my own life. Whenever I see other people having programs about their birthday and other people remembering their birthday, I tkhink of my own birthday. It reminds me of certain things. It makes me wonders, seriously, why do other people get to enjoy and I have to suffer?

Im not enjoying my life right now. But i have to encourage other people. Being strong on the surface doesnt means that Im exactly okay. Im not.