Why do I have to face all the nags at home on my one and only off day out of this two weeks? Life seemed to be so meaningless for me. I might as well work for the whole of 7days every week. Lack of time, lack of sleep, lack of rest, lack of....many many things. I have no one to turn to. I wished you were here for me.

If saying how I feel would lead to a misunderstanding, than i would choose to remain silence. Than all I can ever do is just to remain silence, behind you, supporting you. I jolly well knew it that we do not have much time for each other. You are busy. I chiong work. I knew you could not accompany me, that's why I work. Very upset that all these would lead to a misunderstanding, that thought has never came to my mind. Sad, disappointed.

Let's just work hard towards our own life. Till my very last breath.

ilu, imu & inu.

Stress.

Negliance.

Alone.

Lost lost lost. It seemed like I'm having a split personality. It feels like I'm going through emotion unstable stages. Negative thinking, voices heard, evolving around, teardrops unknowingly. Being strong on the surface to prove how independent I was, but who would have understand that no matter how strong a tree is, it needs a root to support...And the question is, where is my root?


Brain dead. Boring life. No life. Freaking hell shit life with all the on-going stress. I've tried letting many things go. I tried looking things at a lighter note. I tried to tell myself everyday is a brand new day and live the best out of it. Ultimately, I failed.























Uncertainty. The difference of BEFORE & AFTER...












But there is one thing for sure, I miss you.

Standing still, hanging on, clinging on. Climbing high, but where's my directions? Trust? Position? Money? Ability? Prove?

Why am I so stupid?

It feels like Im all alone. I guess, Im really alone.

depressed

I just want my life goes the right way. My life, my path, is not just a career, it's a mission to be complete. I will, pursue what I should have. Who says without money, I would not be able to get a degree? I will, I must. It's an investment.

Relying? Reporting?

hais

我并没有大家想像中的坚强。对不起，脾气不好。我真的变了。只求得到你一丝丝的信任，真的有那么难吗？

心很酸。算了。我只是一个小妹妹。一个。。。不善解仁义， 幼稚，笨，的小妹妹。

想念。非常想念。你呢？

得到前，和得到后，一定会有分别。我感受得到。

雨后，会有天晴吗？

心痛，心落泪。

18岁的天空很蓝。18岁的时间很短。18岁的的.......的一切。。。

18岁，我已悄然走过。

面对19岁吧！