...hais..we have been quarreling recently...you and your assumption...whatever i do seems so wrong? maybe i should nt even talk to any guys at all...maybe.. i should not say anithing at all either... saying "huh" would be scolded from u as well... wat i wan? den wat do u want? wat do we want? wat happen?

i have always envy other people for the life they ever have and compare with my own life. Whenever I see other people having programs about their birthday and other people remembering their birthday, I tkhink of my own birthday. It reminds me of certain things. It makes me wonders, seriously, why do other people get to enjoy and I have to suffer?

Im not enjoying my life right now. But i have to encourage other people. Being strong on the surface doesnt means that Im exactly okay. Im not.

Dear blog,

Is me and him in two different world? Is what we wanna different? How to make him to be accepted by my family members? Im tired. I tried... I tried helping him to make my family members like him. But I failed. They dont like him anymore. How? It feels hurt to be sandwiched in the middle. Will he face everything with me? Or will he give up? Why? Why am I always the one? Why am I always the one to receieve all the negative comments? Others have no reason to judge my life. I live my own life. I dont nid anione to judge me. Shoo off!

Bye blog

Life is unfair. Isnt it? Why are others born with silver spoon and I'm not? Why are other people so protected and I have to do everything? Why should I put in so much effort when no one understands and appreciate it? Why whhy why? Why doesnt anyone just understand how do i feel?

I'm tired. Who would understand? All my complains, my rantings about life....Other people just viewing it that Im thinking too much...Im taking things too seriously...but....for whatever that I have done for friend, what do i get back in the end? in the end, its only an exchange for the time that I sacrifice for my family....


Why do i feel so stress. depressed. paranoid? I cried. I cried on the way home. I cried when I bath. I cried to sleep. Am i like kinda of suffering from depression? I have no idea. I have no one to talk to. Many thoughts running thru my mind...but who can help me?


i just feel like im a failure. all the success that i;ve done in the past, is the past. i failed in interviews now, i feel inferior. i don perform well. i get stress up easily. i made mistakes. why. why is all these happening....



if only, if only someone understand what im gg thru.... no matter who i talk to. no one understands. i could only confide my troubles to you (blog).


dear blog. i always envy other people life. they can have money at any time they want. they work for fun and not work for money. they do not need to worry about bills and stuff. they can buy anithing they like.... they have perfect birthday. they celebrated it with many frens, make it grand.... but i always have to worry about money. worry about this and that.... birthday, much less to mention it. crying on birthday.... hais...why? same people, different life... wat to do>

cried on the way home. who wil understand?

fucking tired.

你会有一天，因为对我厌倦，而离开吗？