Shocked that you would say breaking up as the result of the agreement ... Was it a joke? Even if it is, I can't take it... It is too strong a word to be used ... You don't even know how I feel ...

Another tired day from work . My back is aching , My hand is pain . Seriously , just lifting the fries vat I can feel the pain on my hand . Sigh . I really want to see doctor , but I do not have the time . I would be glad enough when I have the time to rest... This week , is very tough for me ....

What should I do ,to make myself feel better knowing the fact that you guys gonna have a meet up soon? This time round , in a group ... But, I just don't like it... Am I just plain selfish ? Or other girls would accept it? Am I the only one feeling this way ? Or other girls would feel the same way too? Am I too sensitive ?


Last of all , am I even perfect in the eyes of others?

How I missed the past seriously ... Those days when you bring me out when I'm stress... Those days when you just sit by my side and listen to my rantings.. Those were the days ... But now, it's all different ... I know I may be slow and blur at times... Not responding to you or not saying anything doesn't mean that I'm ignoring you .. Sometimes I'm just thinking hard... You ever know what kind of stress I'm facing right now ? Currently I don't even feel like telling you my problem anymore since all I ever get is scolding from you ... I don't like the hard way , I don't like the scolding . Neither do I like the vulgar language ... You may scold it , but please do not scold your gf...

The fear.

It sets me wondering ... Was it me , or was it others? Am I really so not perfect in the eyes of others ? September is a tough month for me... With the upcoming of studying three days a week ( not including the time for projects and self studying ) , FOR preparation n running service on FOr... Monopoly preparation n running first day shift for monopoly ... How am I going to do it seriously ? If I spend my time at work and studies ... How am I going to spend time on family and boyfriend?? I really need a breathe ... Ya, I can't blame anyone .. I was the one who choose to take up three modules , that was my decision ... But I really can't take it when other people say they are stress with their life when I'm going through much more than them ? Sometime I ask for a little understanding ... But no one does ... All I ever get is scolding scolding and scolding ... I had enough . I'm really tired of life ...

Maybe you are right. Maybe I just should not say anything at all. I always end up being scolded by you. Maybe I should just keep quiet and stop complaining.I thought I could tell you my unhappiness and you would understand. I would choose to complain to you cause you are the one that is closest to me . Now I guess I'm wrong ... I have no one to talk to... From now on , I will just keep quiet ... No matter what problems I met with or what unhappiness I had , I would just keep it to myself ... At least , you won't scold me....

Awesome . No words to describe how I feel now . So what if I'm jealous ... It wouldn't change the fact that you would always be a best friend with her huh ? Who would enjoy seeing their bf/gf meeting their ex huh ? I'm sorry but I'm just not so generous enough ! I don't care if both of you are just friends or nothing ... But i just don't like it ? How many times should I say ? Just two of u only ? Forget it ...

I'm not the perfect one .