Because I love you too much .

What the hell am I doing ? Fuck

Which girl would be able to take it when her boyfriend had his ex as his buddy ? Can your ex lover be your buddy ? Can you all be so close ? I don't like it . I just dont like it . Am I being selfish ? Am I thinking too much ?

I hate myself for feeling this way whenever you guys have gathering . I seriously hate myself . I should give you your freedom and let you choose your buddy . But it was my heart that does not allow me to do so . My heart is hurting bad .

No matter what , I know she is going to be your buddy forever . I'm just being demanding . My fault , my bad . I'm the baddest gf .

It's better for me to keep quiet. Now I know , I should have kept quiet.

Feeling so imperfect . I hate this feeling . Why is the world so small ? Perhaps , it's meant to be, it's fated. I can't stop feeling inferior . Not the girl . Not the perfect one .

Sometime , I wished I don't know certain things . Self denial ? Feigning ignorance ? Over sensitive ? I just dOnt like it . Any couples that broke up , are impossible to be friends anymore .

Sometime , I wished I don't know certain things . Self denial ? Feigning ignorance ? Over sensitive ? I just dOnt like it . Any couples that broke up , are impossible to be friends anymore .

This is indeed tiring . I tried very best to juggle with work, u, studies and family . No joke, it's real tiring. I always look forward to your book out. But when you're in camp, I slogged myself with work, mdp, payroll, settle school stuff, go through cldp . It's not easy, not easy . Sometimes being with you I just yearn for you to givee one big hug and tell me everything gonna be okay . I know something my face look like theres no expression or I simply do not want to speak is because I'm real tired, but you didn't notice. Instead of letting me rest, I tried to accompany you even though I don't like LAN gaming, I don't like arcade fishing . Do you know what I really want? Do you know in your car ytd I almost cried when you scold me? Nah, I dont even know if you would read this . Doesn't matter. Probably I just can't be as important as her. I'm just not good enough.