Insecure.


Till this day, I still ask myself... "How much do you love me?" Why do I keep having all those thoughts running through my mind? I'm still feeling so insecured. There are so many things that I wanted to tell you, but I never had a chance to do so. I want to tell you how stressed I am right now, but I couldn't... Knowing that you are in NS, I wouldnt want you to worry about me. Facing so much problems with my family, and having the stress with work, I tell myself, I can do it. But this time round, without you by my side.

I want to tell you how much I treasure the times we had before we got together. But it seems like I cant turn back time. Sometimes I get so disappointed, probably you forget whats my favourite flavour for Hello Panda..Probably you always forget your promise towards me..... I wanted to go Disney on Ice, I wanted to go USS with you. I wanted to go fly kite at Marina Barrage with you.. I wanted to play ice skating with you, roller blade with you, no one else but you...I wanted to spend our anniversary and valentine day without fail, I would be glad enough if you would, remember when is the day of our anniversay....Sometime I just get so disappointed when you ask me what date is it today when it was supposed to be our anniversary.

How much do you treasure me? You can always say that you only wanted to disturb me.. By disturbing me, you are hurting me.... Probably you just want to say it and disturb me and ask me to get out of the car.. But have you ever thought of my feeling? ‘还不快点下车’。。。 I will remember how you chase me out of the car...


Do you know how to treasure? And again, you told me you love to disturb me... by disturbing me,you are hurting me when you purposely made me angry... So, do you love me or you love to make me angry and love to hurt me? Why dont you learn how to treasure a person at all?


Im holding on to my family. Im holding onto you. Im really tired. Real tired. Please, stop hurting me, will you? I really love you and I hope you are true towards me.


Maybe, I will never ever be the one and only in your heart.