No matter what happen, all of us deep down knows that we love this family. I cannot hold on to this family myself. If all of you chose to give up, no matter how hard I tried would be in vain. I always fight for what I want and I became what I am today. But is all that I'm doing worth it? Why can't we just learn to piece everything up together? I can't do all these alone. If you guys wanna commit suicide, I think I feel like doing it more than you do. Keeping quiet doesn't mean it's nothing to me, it just simply shows that I'm sick and tired of holding on. I hope this family won't split. Maybe my 21st birthday is the only way to bring back you all together . If you guys do not attend, I think we know the answer. Please, I pray that you guys turn up . We flow the same blood. And we should live as one. Why should we have doubt on each other? Why can't we learn how to treasure ...... Dear blog, you are the only one I could talk to right now.

Yours sincerely