Back to one day one meal life when school starts . Why am I not a rich girl ? I'm really tired of this life. Why do others can jus simply focus on their studies but I need to work and study? Did I make a wrong decision to stay? The urge to leave is still very strong. I just wanna shout out loud that I'm still a human who bleeds, who have emotion , who need to eat and rest... Why am i working extra harder ? But end of the day, no one appreciate it? And yes , I cried while on the way home . I hate this feeling of being alone. I wanna fight for my own dream but I do not have the ability ... I brought all these upon myself ... Will I really be able to pull through to end of the year? I'm really , tired. As if others would understand how I feel ? Others would only expect me to understand how they feel .... I don't really care how other see in me anymore... I have been giving in too much ... It's time to , speak out .