Dear blog,

Monday and Tuesday were my off day. Things get pretty well. I studied, I go to school, I do my workshop activity, I did my project, and motivated to do my project and had even came up with a draft for my upcoming IM project. MRA is on the track with 35 pages worth of report. 

But things went down today. Ever since I go back to work. Im not ranting about my work, or maybe Im just not whom I used to be. Everyone , anyone can just be so disappointed with me just because I feel like giving up now. But than again, how long have I been this strong and now I really just need a rest.  I do not need anyone to be disappointed with me just because I feel like giving up. I dont owe anyone a life. 

I have tried my best today during the unannoucned travel .Yes, Im very affected that I cant do a good job whenever there is a travel. This greatly affects my mood. Sales and GC were up, I did extend crew, I did call in crew to punch in early. But, still, the shift........ Im just not that perfect manager anymore. And for a moment, I stayed inside the chiller sobbing away. 

This work, had made me skipped school many times. I had skipped for a total of three times since the start of school . No matter how tired I am, I would drag myself to school in the past. But now, as long as some unhappy thing happen at work, I chose to skip school. 

I hate this feeling. I hate this unknowingly crying. Whatever over is over, but why am I pondering over my failures? These 16 days, I do not know how to pull through. 

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ANYWAY.